How do others view me? My one wish is that I could crawl in other people’s heads and find out.
I think that’s one reason I’m always getting into people’s personal stuff. Cuz then I will see the evidence that they really don’t like me and want me to go away.
That’s only happened a couple of times and those people still swear to my face that they like me and want me around. There is a signal in the back of my head that screams NO THEY DONT. So I avoid them. Usually if it seems like I am avoiding you I am probably assuming that I’m being a pain in the neck. There is only two people I have ever avoided because I didn’t like them. I am still avoiding them.
I am trying to make this a deep post, but anyway I am pretty sure most people find me a pain in the butt. Cos I know I can be annoying. And I am pretty sure the other half of people wish I would go away. But as long as they say otherwise I will believe them.
I just want to be remembered…love me or hate me you are still thinking of me
Since everybody is wearing converse I will wear something else
Since everybody likes to enjoy a life without God I will most definitely not
Since everybody overeats I will most definitely not
Since everybody has their real name on facebook I will most definitely not
Since everybody says ikr and lol I will most definitely not
Since everybody drinks, parties and skips class I will most definitely not
Since everybody proclaims their awesomeness I will most definitely not
I’ve been told I have refreshing forwardness, a great sense of humour, loyalty, maturity, I’m sweet, a good role model…words are so important to me. Sometimes I wish they weren’t. So if you say something I assume that’s what you meant. I remember stuff people say for a while. It usually plays in a loop up in my head.
Remember that sweet little note you wrote me? I probably have it saved on my computer or stashed in my room somewhere. It brings me to tears everytime I read it. Oh yeah, and that nickname you gave me? I really do love that. I just pretend I don’t sometimes.