Summer is almost over. Two weeks before I head back to school and three weeks until school actually starts up. *gasp* Yes, but I know I have enough energy to tackle this school year. I feel I had a good chance to evaluate myself and where to move forward in life.
1. I want to balance eating cheaply and eating well. I don’t plan ahead very well. I’ll end up eating three times in six hours one day, or on another day I’ll eat breakfast but not eat for ten hours. I don’t listen to my body as far as when to eat, how much to eat or what to eat. I know there is a better way to do this. I’m going to think less about money when it comes to eating, and more on what my body is telling me. Not necessarily submitting to sugar cravings…
2. Related to number 1, I haven’t been exercising well either because half the time I don’t have the energy to get myself over to the gym and do something other than go to sleep. But I’m planning to get a locker at the gym… that’s how I got myself to practice more. That way I don’t have the excuse of “I have to haul all my stuff to the gym”. It is just there which is awesome. Plus Amber and I have officially decided we are workout buddies which will definitely be motivating.
3. I like learning, but too often I get in a bad mood and spend more time in the bad mood then trying to learn something, or study for my classes. This year I’m going to concentrate on taking some time to learn something everyday even if it is not stuff for my classes. It could be a self assigned project or something, but it has to be learning something.
4. I think spiritually I just needed sometime to step back and look at myself. See myself lash out with my ugly sinful side, see the parts of me that I don’t like, see that I’m not a great person honestly, and accept that. Accept the fact that no matter what I do, I will never be a “good” person, or be satisfied with myself. But have the right attitude about it. Not letting that be a depressing thing but also not letting it be something where I just give up on everything and let whatever happens. I want to be a change, but I can’t do it myself as a measly human. I want to speak up on behalf of the people who don’t have voices, who need help etc… but without taxing myself to the max. That balance is where the challenge lies. I will be trying it out this school year and I’m excited to see where it happens.
To add a side note to the change thing. I want to support people in their own betterment. I don’t mean force people to change, but help people take the things they want most, and help them stay motivated and on track. Something I’m good at… I’ll see exactly how this idea takes shape.
Life is a journey, not a destination. I find some of the best ways to make progress is to listen and seek understanding so that you can work with people and see where they are coming from. People come and go, but a few stay forever.
Songs I love:
Hans Zimmer – Discombobulate
Outkast – Hey ya
LMFAO – Take it to the Hole