25 04 2013

Today has been interesting but I figured might as well make a blogpost about it since I have time.  I am currently working on a big blogpost about new beginnings, graduation, my new haircut, Easter and how it all goes together.

Today we had a conducting assessment where we had to conduct the entire piece through (Waldesnacht by Brahms if you want to look it up), which we normally do for assessments but then we were supposed to have a mini rehearsal and teach a small portion of the piece. Conducting for me is rather difficult, as is public speaking.  But I can get myself through both of these things, just not at the same time. I took this conducting class because conducting is something very intimidating to me and I knew I’d learn a lot and grow as a person and a musician. So today after I conducted the whole piece I was supposed to start talking, but I was so nervous and I couldn’t find my voice and ended up crying instead.  Thankfully my conducting teacher is very nice and very encouraging so she let me leave and compose myself and when I came back I did the teaching portion of it and it went over very well.  It’s funny because the portion I ended up teaching was one that I changed last minute while I was composing myself in the bathroom.  Either way it ended up fine.

Then in my next class, we had presentations [don’t worry mine is next class period] and one group chose to interview religious leaders and talk about that. I wasn’t so hip with their presentation because religion is something way more complex than just a 30 minute presentation covering six different religions.  I’m not good at speaking up in class but I’m not sure what I would have said about it.  For the Christianity section they interviewed one of the pastors from the Experience Life now church since it is non-denominational.  For starters, Experience Life now is not a good church to pick to interview because it’s the hip college church.  Also non-denominational churches really are a denomination even though they claim they aren’t.  The girl giving the presentation ragged on Christianity also because “it’s not open to other religions”… People. Facepalm. Just no. It’s the whole openmindedness bullshit.  You can’t be openminded… the fact that you are against closemindedness already makes you not openminded.

On a side note.. I took a few political and religious quizzes and determined that I most closely fall toward Libertarian and Southern Baptist so that’s what I put in my About Me on Facebook.

This has been a fuss [for the record a fuss is a shorter rant].

Songs I’m loving

David Guetta – She Wolf

Maroon 5 – Daylight

Mackelmore – Thrift Store


30 Week Challenge…Day 2

9 11 2012

This week’s challenge is to write about five favorite concert experiences.

1. Midori Goto is a Japanese American violinist.  I got the opportunity to see her at the Bass Performance Hall in Fort Worth when I was really young.  All I can recall nowadays is that her performance had me awestruck and I knew that i wanted to play the violin.  That’s what got me where I am now playing violin at Julliard… just kidding.  Her performance gave me a love for the violin and I really want to learn how to play it.  After three years I can play Twinkle Twinkle Little Star, and Go Tell Aunt Rhody.  It’s a start.

2. Alexander Kobrin is a Russian pianist who won the Van Cliburn Piano Competition in 2005.  After that he had a performance at the Bass Performance Hall and I was lucky enough to go see him.  He has a wonderful touch at the piano and he reminded me of all the reasons I love the piano.  He not only plays wonderfully but he is very attractive also which is an added bonus.

3. The School of Music at Texas Tech renovated their organ this summer.  At the beginning of September they had a re dedication concert for it.  They brought in James David Christie, a famous American organist to play the concert.  The first song he picked really showed off how much the renovation improved the sound of the organ.  It inspired me to get off my butt and learn the organ.  If all goes well then next semester I will be taking organ lessons.

4. MercyMe was amazing in concert.  Re solidifying the fact that they are one of my all time favorite bands ever.  I remember feeling refreshed and at peace after their concert.  I really need to go see them again.

5. Sanctus Real was the same thing.  I felt rejuvenated after seeing them in concert. There is no other way to describe it.  The more I listen to them, the more I fall in love with their music.  Now go check them out.

Honorable Mentions: Lang Lang, Michael W. Smith, First Baptist Church Dallas’ piano duet concert, Hawk Nelson.

Songs I’m loving:

Sanctus Real – Alone

MercyMe – In You

Maroon 5 – One More Night

Music time…

17 10 2012

Supernerd64 just posted a new post on his blog.  Which made me realize that it’s been a while since I have posted on mine.  I feel like if you divided my life into five categories, that is where everything has been going on.  Today’s category we will talk about is music. I will get that friends post up eventually, more than likely next time.

Here at my university, we just renovated our organ.  We had a huge fundraiser last school year to raise money for it.  It was worked on for the whole month of August and it’s official re dedication was a couple of weeks ago.  It sounds so beautiful… I felt honored to be at that concert.  A few days later, Sigard Ogard (sp?) a professor who was on the keyboard faculty my freshman year, came up from Houston to play his own concert on the organ.  I found out he’s originally from Norway which is so interesting, and is also the reason I am unsure how to spell his name.  I’ve decided I would like to take organ lessons.  We’ll see how that goes.

My piano teacher is back from maternity leave and my second lesson was with her today.  I really like the way we are working together. For those of you that don’t know, I switched to a new one this year because my previous one is going to be doing research and not teaching.  I didn’t think I’d be too thrilled with the 9am lesson time but it’s working out quite well actually.  I’m glad I can see that after two lessons.  I believe one of the main reasons is that she said something about how in the past two years she hasn’t seen me enjoy music the way I did when I first auditioned, so she made one of our goals to make sure we are enjoying music instead of just playing.  It is true, because I get anxious about things and nervous and I worry, which I’m getting better at.  Also at not stretching myself so much that I’m just super stressed out so I think this goal came with good timing.

Two things I’m really wanting to learn to do well is harmonize with my voice, and improvise on the piano.  Both of these things involve figuring things out on your own instead of reading notes somewhere.  I am happy to report that with a few songs on my Ipod I am finding myself doing this.  Half of them is me following the harmonization of the artist but with a couple of others I’ve found a way to improvise a little myself.  Also in choir we are singing a song where the women are divided into four parts and I am the third part with some other women.  That is different to not be singing the top voice all the time but also very very good practice.  As far as improvising, Philip and I had a good sessions where I played the same four chords and he went at it on his viola.  I did different variations of these chords and it seems like a tiny thing but for me it is a huge deal.  Just playing something that isn’t me following notes or chords on a page, and it sounds like real music.

Ben Folds Five came out with a new album.  I only bring that to your attention so I can show you this song of his.  It’s called Do It Anyway and I think some of the lyrics are particularly good.

And if you’re paralyzed by a voice in your head
It’s the standing still that should be scaring you instead
Go on and
Do it anyway

HAVE COURAGE! Anyway go listen to that song because it is great stuff.  I think that’s about it for now music wise.

Songs I’m loving:

Ben Folds – Do It Anyway

Britney Spears – Stronger

Rufus Wainwright – Hallelujah

I get a good feeling

5 05 2012

I’m listening to the Flo Rida song “Good Feeling” which is awesome. Mainly because he included old tapes of Etta James singing in this song. I mean who does stuff like that?? It had Allie and I fooled. She had told me it was Adele. I’m inspired to listen to weird classical music. All of that serialism, minimalism and all of that weird stuff that composers wrote in this century. We went to the scholarship concert the school of music held. It was odd because name was in the program for scholarships. However, all four choirs performed Mozart’s Requiem Mass which was AWESOME! Especially the Kyrie. Most of Mozart’s music is super giddy and happy, or as Philip said “elevator music”, but this Requiem Mass has some deep and very emotional parts to it. I think I had a musicgasm while listening to it.

This week seems like it has all been about music. Which is probably a good thing since it is my major. The more things I go to outside of Intervarsity/music events, the more people I realize that I know. It is slightly scary. People keep throwing the world “popular” at me, but it I think it is just a bunch of BS. Being popular is different. I just am nice to people and try to be a really good friend and I have a warm personality. Hence my INFPness… For those of you that don’t know what that is, go and take the Myers-Briggs test. One common thing that I don’t think people understand in our extroverted world is that I’m an introvert. I just generally don’t appear like one because….check this… my personality type is able to act like the opposite, but it is very energy draining.

I’ve noticed a hierarchy of status with people in my life. There are the people that I know who they are and the people that know who I am. Then there are the people I know a lot about because I’ve listened to them talk and I’ve facebook creeped. Then there are the people that when they are finished talking, they listen long enough to hear what I have to say. That is the three levels, it is not complicated but that’s the way it is. Everybody has their spot and I love people a whole lot. I think there is good in everybody, even the people we think are complete idiots, or douchebags or others such things. You just have to look for it.

Songs I love:
Flo Rida – Good Feeling
Skylar Grey – Invisible
Pink – It’s All Your Fault

Music stuffs…

28 04 2012

I don’t know why but recently I’ve felt super super inspired to do things.  Such as practice the piano, learn how to sing better, practice playing chord piano, make up dialogues in my head, learn how to dance REALLY well, read books etc… I’m not sure that I’ll have time for all of this but I’m going to try.  Especially since summer is coming up and there will be some loads of free time.  Also because I’ve decided Saturdays are my empty days.  I won’t do anything on those days except possibly go to a concert in the evening.  That is what happened last Saturday.  Also it is a day which is reserved for wearing something different than I normally would.  Today I am wearing a dress which usually sits in my closet all day.  Kate and I attended the beautiful Jackie Steven’s junior recital.  Jackie sang wonderfully and I got to meet her mother which was cool.  I love meeting people’s family.  It shows another side of them which I love seeing.  I don’t like seeing one side of people.  I like seeing many different sides.  Them with you, them with their friends, them with their family, them stressed, them happy, them tired etc… Then I feel you get to know the whole complete person, or at least more of it.

In class we listened to Therody for the victims of Hiroshima.  It is a classical piece attempting to depict what it would sound like if an atomic bomb dropped.  It is very very ear shattering.  Go listen to it, but be warned that it will be very grating and not very pleasant.  I had  heard it before this class only because of Philip.  He is such a classical music nerd.  It’s always listen to this, listen to that and before you know it I feel more cultured because of it.  I tend to get lazy and seek out pop or rock music and not classical music.  I do like the aspect of the words in it but in this semester of Music History we are studying modern music and my interest has been peaked.  Partly because half of the stuff my professor talks about, I had already discussed with Philip at some point during the two years I have known him.

I’m supposed to talk about guilt in my next post.  Ergh, here we go.  I’ve developed a guilt complex over the years.  I’m not sure exactly where I got it.  I might have mentioned something like this in earlier posts in the form of perfectionism.  I feel guilty for a lot of things.  Canceling plans with people, saying no to people if I don’t have a good excuse, having bad days, bringing up the person I am dating if the person I am talking to is single (most extreme example)… but I think you get the point.  This semester has been a lesson of not feeling that I owe people things or that I need to feel guilty and constantly be doing things for people.  It’s okay if I say no.  It’s okay if I don’t want to hang out with certain people.  I choose how my time is managed and not other people.  I choose what I do and not other people.  If somebody is trying to make me feel bad for not wanting to hang out with them, then that is their problem not mine.  If I am not in the mood to be around somebody then it’s okay to say that and it’s okay to not have good days.  That has no reflection on me or my character.  As Lady Gaga said “I’m a free bitch baby”. In fact being honest about all these things makes things better.  Hence the reason I can have a free day on Saturday.  Hence the reason that I can have a bad day and not talk to people.  Hence the reason I can now do what I want to do, instead of what other people want me to do.  I first realized it was a problem when Eren asked “What do you do for fun?” and I realized I had no answer to that because I did what everyone else did.  Philip helped me pinpoint that I had a guilt problem over this semester as we ran into different issues like that.  Hint hint: This all ties back to my idea of trying to be authentic. Basically if we aren’t being real with people and pretending that we enjoy spending time with them, or that we enjoy different activities where does that leave us? On the other side don’t take this to mean that you should be completely selfish and do whatever it is that your heart desires. I’m using this as an example when trying to be selfless goes wrong. Does any of this sound familiar to you? Especially as a Christian where there sometimes seems to be a standard of what you should be?

Songs I love:
Calvin Harris – Feel So Close
Rufus Wainwright – Hallelujah
Lady Gaga – Bad Romance


25 03 2012

I went through my iPod and made a new playlist. It has all the songs I love but I forget to listen to because they are buried deep in the recesses of my iPod. On the list is hellogoodbye, demon hunter, maroon 5, FM static, American Hi-Fi, The classic crime… And other amazingness. I hope by at least hearing one of those names you started drooling. If not you need to update your iPod music.

Right now I’m doing Theory homework. We are studying 20th century music. There is so much math involved it is crazy. It’s also showing me why I love this period of music so much. One word: tritone. For those of you non music majors, it’s a weird interval sound that in “pretty classical music” you would never find.

Songs I love
Hellogoodbye – Here (In Your Arms)
American Hi-Fi – the Art of Losing
Flyleaf – Arise

Written in the Stars

29 09 2011

If I had to pick one song at this moment for everybody to listen to it would be Written in the Stars by Tinie Tempah featuring Eric Turner. If you watch the music video you get to see Eric Turner who looks really hot with his hair falling in his face [not that his black tank top or facial hair has anything to do with his good looks] as he plays the piano… he kind of looks like Devi but that is a whole other story. Also personally I like the clean version of this song, not because it is clean but because I like the way they did it better. These are my favorite lines in the song. The ones that scream at me and make me love this song. I also love this song because Allie does.

…Adopted by the major I want my family back
People work hard just to get all their salary taxed
Look I’m just a writer from the ghetto like Malorie Blackman
Where the hell’s all the sanity at, damn
I used to be the kid that no one cared about
That’s why you have to keep screaming til they hear you out…

…But have you ever been so hungry it keeps you awake
Mate, now my hunger would leave them amazed…

…Everyones a kid that no-one cares about
You just gotta keep screaming until they hear you out…

Oh written in the stars
A million miles away
A message to the main
Seasons come and go
But I will never change
And I’m on my way

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